This is a long winded post but I've been meaning to write it. I've been going through a quarter life crisis and felt like this constantly:
and really felt the need to write this after seeing this Jenna Marbles "Draw My Life" video
I know that I am not the only one going through this and wondering where the hell is my life is going.
I'm two months into being 27 years old and I haven't always been happy about the direction my life was going. In fact I was angry for a long time that I was unable to finish college after I graduated high school and I worked in jobs I despised for five years. While I was miserable and hating life, I would go on Facebook to constantly see classmates and former friends from high school getting promotions and fancy jobs, they were moving into apartments in NYC or getting married. Then in October of 2011 I was laid off by the job that I hated so much, after almost three years there, and after a few days of panicking I took this as an opportunity to not feel sorry for myself but focus on school and finally earn my bachelor's degree. It was during this time, about 7 years, between high school graduation and returning to college I've come to realize what my passions are and what I want to pursue a career in. When I graduated high school I wanted to be a nurse, so I took jobs working in the medical field and it took me five years to realize that a career in the medical field is not for me. I found out that I truly love something in a field completely different from nursing, I love television and have a lot of knowledge about the TV industry.
You may have noticed, especially if you follow me on Tumblr, I am a television junkie! I mean my life revolves around my favorite shows. I also found another passion of mine: The Olympics! While unemployed and on break from school this past summer I watched The Olympics non stop, it was kind of ridiculous, but it helped me really discover what my passion is and how badly I want to work in television. This led me to declare my major in communication recently.
Anyway I am happy to say that I am pretty proud with the progress I've made and have actually begun to feel confident in myself and my abilities, which I learned in school. I've gone from having a 1.7 GPA (I had a hard time adjusting to school after seven years off) and now can happily say I have a 3.0 GPA.
- I learned that majority of people have no idea what they want to do with their lives at 18 and that your 20's are for making mistakes and finding out who you are.
- I learned that every thing I've been through have made me a stronger person
- I learned that no matter how old I am it is ok to ask my mom for help
- I've learned that I am not going to have the answers and that I am going to continue to make mistakes
- The importance of my friends and do not know what I would do without Amelia and Danielle!
Does this mean I'm not going to freak out that my best friend is getting married and that my other best friend just bough a condo...NOPE
While I am still a cat lady
It's so stupid that we are expected to have a plan for our lives at 18. We go to grade school for twelve years and basically take the same math, English, chemistry/science, etc. every year - with maybe a couple of electives. Then we are supposed to know that we want to be nurses, lawyers, teachers, etc.?
ReplyDeleteI may be getting married, but I'm still moving closer to where you are, bestie! Plug: http://b-schoolwedge.blogspot.com/
ReplyDeleteHahaha.
We still need to get those necklaces, if you're down!
Awesome post, mango. It's okay to not know what your purpose in life is in your twenties. I believe our purpose is to be creative with whatever passions we have. And your passion doesn't have to be your job. But practice it everyday. If you're purely happy, then you can't be brought down.